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30 January 2010

I don’t know how to tell you this. It’s very hard for me. Being this transparent on the internet means that it is all out there for everyone to know about, forever. No matter what it is, for-ev-er! I am constantly amazed what people say on the internet without thinking it might come back someday and bite them in the… employment market.

Anyway, I met up with an old friend today. I was supposed to be there yesterday but I used the snow as an excuse not to meet. It was a very clandestine meeting – one Alpha Hubby wasn’t supposed to find out about. I didn’t want him to know about meeting this old friend. He’d been upset with a simple “how-de-do” I’d given to one a few years back.*

But I couldn’t stay away. It’s bad enough when you crave chocolate, but when you begin to craving the thrill of meeting up with old friends, I have to tell you – it’s hard to ignore. Old friends are sometimes very, very good for you. They build you up. They remind you of old times – especially when you were on the very best of terms and met every day – sometimes skipping lunch to meet. They remind you of your youth and better days gone by. They remind you of when you looked and felt your best. They help you in ways other people and things have hindered you.

After meeting with my old friend, I was so *HOT* that it actually felt good to be out in the snow. Alpha Hubby stuffed a snowball down my top – and it felt sooo good against my heated body. Mmmmm. I didn’t even feel guilty twinges going from my old friend to Alpha Hubby. As long as he didn’t know, I could keep it up.**

But… he found out.  To say he wasn’t happy is an understatement.  He stared at me in shock.  He couldn’t believe I’d met up with my old friend.  He was absolutely gob smacked – you know, utterly astounded – that I’d gotten away with it and he didn’t find out until afterward.

I mean it. He wasn’t happy – he was totally … ECSTATIC.

Yep. I was glad to meet up with my old friend that I hadn’t seen much of since last year. Early last year.

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This meeting prompted me look fondly on another newer-old friend I’ll be looking up and using – in about a month.  Remember, I’m doing that “make a new habit” thing – doing something for 30 days, establishing it as a habit before moving on to the next thing I need to change in my life.

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I was so excited to meet up with my old friend that I might even dig up the information I need to meet up with this old friend – one I met at Christmas… TWO years ago.  Isn’t that pathetic?  But someday I will go the step further and strip off… the outer package!!

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*How-de-do as in looking at the treadmill, talking to the treadmill, but never getting ON the treadmill.
**Truth is, I’ve started and quit so many programs, I really wanted to start the treadmill and just DO it before telling him about it first – to surprise him with an established fact. It really didn’t work out that way since he was in and out of the sunroom and knew I was on it. Took a little poetic license here. I do know he’s hoping it will “stick” this time!



Love soft as an easy chair
Love fresh as the morning air
One love that is shared by two – (me, me, me – ME because if you think I’m sharing you are out of your mind, la la la la la)
I have found with you…*

IN HONOR OF VALENTINES DAY, THIS IS AS CLOSE AS I AM GOING TO GET TO CHOCOLATE – TOUCHING THIS PIC:


chocolate and wine



Chocolate.  My former nemesis.  I used to crave chocolate all the time – almost couldn’t survive without it. 


Sweets


I am proud to say, the love affair is OVER.  I have broken up with chocolate… for the time being.   Oh, I still crave, desire, hunger for, can’t live without it, am willing to kill for want it once in awhile.  So I have a small piece and then get over it.  Well, I have a small piece.  I don’t get over it.  I always want to kill for more but I no longer crave it.  AND I don’t keep it in the house anymore.  I don’t hide it on the shelves anymore.  I don’t stick some in the freezer anymore.  I don’t stick it in drawers, under cabinets – where ever I could stick it so that no one would know I had it I wouldn’t see it. 


I am trying to think of it this way:  chocolate mouse trap


But it doesn’t always work.  I’d probably catch a mouse trying to get to it before me and have to kill the mouse for it.  (Oh NO, not me. I wouldn’t do that. Nope, unh huh.)


OK.  So my point today is that, due to the constraints I’ve put on myself with this LBD Journey, Alpha Hubby can’t make me his usual fudge for Valentines Day.  I don’t need anymore flowers – got plenty for my birthday.  I need to think of something really GREAT for him to get me.  Oh, well, no.  If he does that, then I have to reciprocate by cooking a romantic dinner (ooh, and gain weight, too).  Hmmm – I think I’ll stick with a nice healthy…


sensual


RENDEZVOUS.


Stick to your goals, ladies!  You’ll be glad you did.  Remember that old saying?  A moment on the lips a lifetime on the hips.  Yeah, I hated it, too.


 


*Evergreen (Love Theme from A Star Is Born)” is the well known theme song from the 1976 film A Star Is Born.  It was composed and performed by Barbra Streisand with lyrics by Paul Williams (with addition by LBDDiaries)




You’ve got to accentuate the positive
Eliminate the negative
And latch on to the affirmative
Don’t mess with Mister In-Between


You’ve got to spread joy up to the maximum
Bring gloom down to the minimum
Have faith or pandemonium’s
Liable to walk upon the scene**


It seems to me people are complaining more and more.  I know for some it is tough out there but some people always manage to look at the good side while others… not so much.  They feel sorry for themselves in greater numbers.  They moan, groan, grumble, sigh and cry, and sling snot.  It is a po’  pitiful why me, all about me, not think of others and it’s not my fault whiny world we live in.


I decided that once a week I am going to do a blog post about things I’m grateful for.  I am working on developing an Attitude of Gratitude and making sure my focus will…  Ac-Cent-Tchu-Ate the Positive!


So today I will start with the fact that after 67 degree weather, we are back to our cold snap and high winds.  I am so grateful I not only have a great heat pump but the funds to pay any electric bill it pumps out.


Alpha Hubby – oh, I could go on all day about Alpha Hubby.  I have never been loved as unconditionally (outside of God) as this man loves me.  After 16 years marriage (March 4), he is even more romantic than ever and quite an amazing man.  The more I know him, the more I not only love him, but LIKE him.  He truly is my best friend. He gets better like a fine wine.


Alpha Son – what a great guy.  He has a great finacee’ and hysterically funny dog.  He has an amazing sense of humor and I am so proud of him.  He’s a hard worker, can cook, do his own laundry and dishes (wow, how cool is that?) and ain’t too shabby to look at, either!


I am grateful for all the assets I have to help me on my journey back into my Little Black Dress – not only the two Alphas but the equipment, knowledge and means.  I have everything I need and no excuses.  So I’m also grateful that I can STOP making excuses and just DO what I need to do, every morning, every day, every moment, every hour, every choice I make.


LIFE IS GOOD.  It is BETTER when you focus on the good and not the bad.  What you focus on changes the outcome.

                             HisArm1a Leland pr

           Josh Leighann Head        Josh Sandals 3 faces    sandals4




“Ac-Cent-Tchu-Ate the Positive” (Words and Music by Harold Arlen and Johnny Mercer, 1945)

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